this is a post in response to something i heard from another someone. so if you’re my buds and you know my new hideout anyways and i know you read my blog, ignore this.  if you’re but a random stranger whom i’ve never met before, ignore this as well, you are free to peruse through the blog and read whatever you can understand. i’m sorry i talk in code sometimes, and that’s only for my close friends and family only.

but this post is addressed to my acquaintances, people whom i say hi to, people whom i meet but do not know me well enough.

a. i know this is public domain and this is what i wrote it for… so read all you want..

but if you know me, i would think it’s only polite that you let me know you read my blog. and it’s different for you. because you know what’s going on in my life, whatever’s written in code, you understand. therefore, it then leads to a situation, doesn’t it?

so please, if you know me, and you read the existence of my blog, please it’s only polite to let me know. it’s like my room, i leave it open, so obviously anyone can walk in and out as they please. but it’s only nice right to let me know if you go in and take something even though i showed it to you before.

and it’s one thing to read my blog, it’s another thing to go around to tell people about the contents of my blog. and ask whether it’s appropriate or not to write it down. what i write, i take responsibility for. but why go around telling other people about what i write when it’s none of your concern?

if you have an issue with what i post up, COME TO ME. especially if you happen to know me. if it’s inappropriate, i’ll apologize and remove it STRAIGHT AWAY. i’m not that proud you know. i know i make PLENTY OF MISTAKES, and the only way i can learn is if you tell me about it.

AND I DON’T WANT TO LOSE FRIENDS JUST BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID BLOG.

hi friends, family, visitors and stumblers alike…

i am here to announce the closure of this blog. for those who know me well, you will be receiving an e-mail with the virtual whereabouts of my new sanctuary.

i have decided that i no longer to blog for the public eye, but for my friends and family whom i really want to keep updated with my life. and it’s not such a big loss for the rest anyway, cos this blog is really really boring.

so those who are close to me, i assume you have my e-mail. e-mail me if you don’t receive an e-mail about my new hideout.

i did not lock out my new sanctuary, but i’m not labelling it either. so find it if you’re that interested or leave me a tag or a note. i might hand you the keys to my life. (=

yup i’m home and i know i know. my blog needs serious updating. i’ll do it. i promise.

just that i’m still a bit deaded from the  buzz of activities the past couple of days..

now i need bed.

so good night guys.

really doesn’t seem to matter how hard i try…

the soft approach.. the hard approach.. the whatever approach…
my heart hurts from caring too much…
i thought if i tried hard enough…
things will right itself.. but apparently one person isn’t good enough…
or maybe i’m just not good enough.. that’s it.

i’m not capable of saving the world alone.

i’m sorry i didn’t make it to the finishing line in time for you.

ok.. this is it. the update of the interesting and happy things that are happening around here (after my birthday):

1. coldrock

+ onone fine saturday evening, the supper trio (new trio!!! later later!) went down to randwick (which is about 15 minutes walk from where i live) to COLDROCK.. it’s this really cool ice-cream place that allows you to choose an ice-cream and a filling and they smash it up for you on a cold board… and then put it on a cone or in a cup for you. yumm… pictures:

introducing the members of the supper trio:

 Therese and Sharon…

 Therese is malaysian who did 5 years of high school in nz.. came to australia to complete BA and is now doing her masters in accounting. very cool! (= used to be my neighbour.. but now lives on the other end of the college.

Sharon is singaporean who just graduated from cjc last year (so 1 year my junior) and is currently doing food science (= first year.

cool stuff! anyways… cold rock was fun!

2. chalk f3st @ darling harbour.

haha.. it was this festival where they get artists to decorate the floor of prymont bridge in the city. so the trio trotted to the city (well, therese went there first and we met her there) and we basically feasted our sight on the beautiful drawings they put up (secret technique: to make chalk stay on the floor, after chalking must cover with layer of water! works!)

the globe -therese’s favourite

sharon’s favourite - eternity. the yellow dots are very cool!

my favourite of the beach and the bottle. msg in a bottle?

this guy chalked up the car and the trio! (=

   and after that we were stopped for a colouring contest to colour a car! hahaa. 19-22 year girls colouring a car like it was the biggest thing in the world and snatching colours from 10 year old kids. sigh. my friends.

the final pdt

 and then it was lunch at the harbour bridge:

yummy noodles! look at my big mouth! (and therese looking really elegant in the background)

 and it ended with krispy kremes! (= yumyum! (=

me finished the donut before they could take the picture. but me and therese shared a chocolate creme filling! yummy..

 anyways, i need to head off to a science vs religion debate (= with kristine. stay tuned for part II: mooncakes + sparkles.

hi all.

hahaa. yeah. this blog is seriously unkempt… like the neglected secret garden. (= hahaa. but yeah.

have you ever had people in your life who really get on your nerves. people who promise you they will get work done and then come across and say that they don’t want to do it anymore and you were relying on them to get it done?

people who have a weekly appt with you and then walk out on you without telling you about it?

people who say one thing and act another?

living here has taught me a lot. i don’t deny the good it has done for me. but there are things here that i feel that they deny (and i’m very sure it’s not just me)  and things that i see that no one seems to see. but yeah. that’s life i guess.

for now. i can sit back and observe and watch the show play out b4 me. hahaa. and learn from it as much as i can. (=

hahaa. been going out with the mys gang a bit! (= fun. (really, you can find fun everywhere) hahaa. which is cool!

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

‘Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God’s soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you’re there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
‘Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

‘Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God’s soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything’s put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it’s there you belong.

Give me the innocence of a little child, and the wisdom of an 80 year old.

ok.. update on my life….

i’ve had my second med school exam in my life and it feels better i guess. every med school exam feels like an A level paper. i tell you, by the end of 2 years, i’m going to get so numb. so numb.

and well, today i volunteered for an ARC event (arc is like the student union of the uni, or the sc equivalent of jc) and it just brought back sooo sooo many fantastic memories of jc days where we’d pull massive events like that out of nothing. the yum cha festival thing was pretty good, but it’s not quite the same feeling without the same 33 people supporting you. now, i appreciate the blackjacks so much. missya.

and life in creston is settling into a routine i guess. but i’ve learnt something:

love all, trust few and wrong none. (=

ever felt excluded before?

not being rejected. not being screamed at. but being excluded.

hl/gel: thank you soooo much for the presents. we may not be sitting in the same lectures everyday now, but the memories are still very fresh. and i promise we’ll meet again soon.

i struggle to find a place here. but perhaps i struggled in vjc too.
but i will find my peace one day….

BUT i have exams in a week. *pulls hair*

give me the grace to do well. (=